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Listening to Up Dharma Down. Heehee.
I don’t expect you to read this, I don’t even think it would make sense if you did.
I’m not giving up on late night conversations. I’m not giving up on random funny moments. Not giving up on planning dates, planning vacations. I’m not giving up on holding hands, hugging each other in public. Not giving up on saying “I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!!” while having a super big smile. I’m not giving up on making kulitan everywhere. I’m not giving up on fighting, making up, saying sorry. I aint giving up on just quietly looking at each other and being happy. I’m not giving up on making cute faces on pictures, thinking about kids. I’m not giving up on crying on his shoulder because I’m upset about something. I’m not giving up on making love and feeling completely contented with life. I’m not giving up on surprises, gifts, saying “HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY!!!!” and having the same super big smile on my face like I have when I’m extremely happy. I’m not giving up on red spots on my chest when I’m extremely excited to see him again and hold him in my arms.
See what I’m trying to say is. I’m never, ever, never in a million years, ever give up on love. I’ll love again and I’ll love more. I will make someone happy again and make him lambing again when we’re together and make him something nice just because I love him. Or if he’s having a bad day. No heartbreak from the past can ever make me deprive my next love of a lesser feeling of being loved by me.
Its good to be back. To see ALL of the friends I almost lost and hearing them say “WE MISSED YOU!!!” I’m really proud of myself I saw them all in just 5 days. Its amazing to know I’m me again. Its good, great actually. Of course theres something but, its pass me now. I cannot linger in what is no longer there. My life is beautiful. I’m so grateful for everything around me that I actually feel like nothing’s missing. :) Rather, somethings coming and all I have to do now is wait. I look at myself and think of the things I’ve learned and who I became and honestly, I’m fucking great. Haha I’m like Nadine v2.00. Everything else? Its gonna be legen… wait for it… wait for it!!!
Wait for it!!!
Are you waiting for it? Wait for it!!!!!
Dary. :)
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